thoughts of today

this morning I thought to myself, out of no where...or somewhere I guess i just dont know..i thought to myself and God, if something tragic happened to me I want to be that person that has tremendous faith and courage only that could come from Him. I want, without a doubt, faith that shows He is with me and rules my heart and life and what ever this world throws at me, He will overcome it. and then i dont need something tragic to happen...to be that person, I can be that person, I am that person...somewhere inside of me, God has made me new, He dwells inside of me, that faith and courage i talk about is there... He just needs to draw it out...I need to trust and let it out.

excitement and joy is dwelling inside of me and i love experiencing it. I love sharing it with people. I cant help but tell people of my excitement and joy God has given me. He makes me long for Him that I have never felt before. I am excited to spend every morning with Him, to talk to Him, to listen...I am learning how to listen to Him. I am learning a lot when I spend more and more time with Him.

I have moments when i just want someone to sit in front of me so I can just talk about everything thats on my mind and just listen. I have lots of moments when I just want someone to talk to me and tell me everything thats on their mind so I can listen. i like it when someone is processing right in front of me. its funny how much i love to listen.

I love birthdays and I love to celebrate peoples life, but i also like celebrating people when its not their birthday. people should be celebrated not in an idolizing way, but to be encouraged. Living in this world is hard and exhausting and tough.

i love that beauty is everywhere and not just in one set structure.

i love it when I am just walking across the street and the wind blows a certain way and all of a sudden I am caught in a moment, He is trying to tell me something in that moment or He is just walking by my side expressing His presence. Its so cool!