to be known or not to be known....

so i was thinking about people and how people are and why they do the things they do. And one of the things i was thinking about is how people interact with other people. How much they let the other person know about themselves.

I like asking questions. Its how i get to know people. I have found that some people like questions, they like to be known. and then there are the people that dont. they squirm in their seat as I ask simple or maybe tough questions that would open them up and they cant get around it unless they lied in which I can pick out the liars. why is it to be "known" is such a risk for a lot of people? whats the worse that can happen? Each person is worthy to be known. the counter might be "God knows me, thats enough, people hurt each other and getting hurt....well hurts" I would say to this that "because God knows you and created you is the exact reason other people should know you too. You re his creation to be shared, to be known to the world."

are you following me? oh i hope so.

referring to the "people hurt other people" , yea getting hurt is a risk and it sucks but God is there to pick you up, hold you, heal you, but enjoying and being in friendships, relationships is the big prize and I think out weighs the risk. i learn so much from my friends because I take a risk and so do they but we both know its for a good cause. We grow and learn together and God shines through

I am sad for those who dont take the risk to be known.
some might say i am avoiding to be known because i am always asking the questions...but not true, I will happily answer any question anyone asks, i have nothing to hide, no dark secrets. and I want to be known... but people just don't ask.


there is just so much that is missed out on and we dont even know it.
one of my friends told me it is impossible to know and spend time with everyone you meet...and i said oh it is possible...people just dont make the time, allow space to connect.

i guess this is all i have right now on the subject, its a work in progress and i am jsut stating what i have experienced and yea my opinion

tis the season to...spend?

Every year I shop and buy the gifts for my family and friends. Some people I take my time and try and find the perfect gift and then some get the norm gift ie: scarf, purse, gloves, hat, T-shirt, sweater, etc. all good gifts but zero thought goes into the gift. I run around the malls and store hop at the wee hours to get every single person a gift. My body aches, my feet hurt and I just don't enjoy the gift giving process.

This year is a new season, and I want to enjoy everything that's good about it. Jesus, family, friends, cookies, Christmas movies, eggnog, Charlie Brown, tree decorating, ice skating and so much more. I enjoy finding the perfect gift for each person and seeing their reaction when they open it. But then it has become work, hard labor...trying to find a parking spot, getting stuck in traffic, standing long lines, getting sneezed on by strangers, pushed, yelled at...its just not worth it anymore. the craziness of it all.

Recently I have been convicted of being in debt so I have made a pack to pay off my credit cards by the end of this year, this factor leaves a lack of funds. So I decided not to buy any Christmas gifts this year. At first this idea didn't sit well with me, "how could I not buy gifts?!?!?!" and so I let this uneasiness sit for a while and I started to wonder "why?" and started asking myself "does it really matter if I don't buy gifts?" "will they not love me as much?" "am I so ingrained in this system that I can't pull myself away?" I was worried about telling my family that I wasn't going to buy them gifts, I was worried they wouldn't understand. I told my mom, she nodded in agreement and approval. I hung out with my dad and broke the news to him, kind of understood but wanted to give me money to buy gifts, he is a gift giver. I appreciated the thought but forcefully declined. I say "forcefully" only towards myself, I think God has so much to teach me through this and taking his money would be the easier way out and "OH I sooooo wanted to take the easy way out"

The thought of not doing or getting anyone anything still left me feeling uneasy, so I started thinking of things that I can get people. Things that will truly come from the heart and that I really want to give people this season, something that won't cost a thing.

This season is going to be the start of something new, a new path perhaps.
I guess my question to you is...whats this season going to be for you?